Pieces

First off, hello again.
It's been a while since I've entered the blogging world but something has drawn me back I suppose. At first I didn't really want to continue from this blog as I feel events in my life have changed me so much that it was necessary for me to start over. But after reading through my old blog posts, I realized that they are a big part of who I am and no matter the changes I have gone through or how much I don't really want people that I personally know to read about my real feelings, i guess I finally accepted that it's who I am and I shouldn't try to hide or start over.

So,

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College is hard. This has been my go to sentence this week. Whyyy? I keep telling myself, "you can do hard things," and then it comes time to do them and I'm like, "no I can't!" And then my boss tells me I'm promoted and that I can work 5 extra hours a week and part of me is like "yay, more money" and then another part of me is like "darn, less time and more responsibility." It's good though. And I definitely can't complain because it is a blessing needed and fun to be a part of something bigger at work, but at the same time I wonder, can I really handle this? Throughout my college academics, there have been multiple times when I simply felt like a failure. And I don't want to feel that way anymore. I'm finally getting into my major classes and I don't want to fail. It's one of my greatest fears. But it's one that I've been facing alone and it's hard. College is hard.

Okay, that's all I'm going to whine about today. Because