Don't Go Without Me

Let's start with Thanksgiving break. It was great! Did absolutely nothing but eat, shop, watch movies, eat, watch nieces and nephews, shop, and then more eating. Being home is such a wonderful feeling. There's a feeling of acceptance from family members that is hard to find in others. Definitely possible, not as easily found though. There's just something comforting in having a sister say "that's so Crista" in regards to music or fashion. Or being able to have them laugh at your ridiculous puns and jokes. Not necessarily because they're funny, but because it's just who you are. Or something like that.

I don't really know what love feels like but I know that I want so badly for everybody in my family to be happy and for everything to work out for them and for them to not feel pain or sadness, and I think that's love right? And maybe that's love for me. Or at least part of it.

Also, accepting your family for what it is. Because it's probably one of the hardest things that I am still trying to work on. We are far from perfect for reasons that I still don't understand but we try in our own ways. Maybe not the way that you would want them to try, but trying nonetheless. And that's just family I guess. (:

Everybody does it. 

Christmas is coming fast and I can't wait. And I can already feel the relief of a fresh start come January. It's hard now as finals seem to be consuming all thoughts but January always brings with it renewal and a revamping of my life. I love it.

Basically I'm obsessed with this song: Cset La Mort by the Civil Wars. And I have been for a while. I listen to it daily. Hourly even when I'm home. It's so beautiful. And dark, but more beautiful than dark. Just listen to the lyrics. Take what you will from them. I took what I needed.

Also, I'm on Pinterest, and I want to share stuff from there to here but there is just not enough time in the day to explain the significance of each pin so you can just check them out and gather what you will if desired. I think I pin pretty great stuff. But doesn't everybody? Well, I think I pin exceptionally great stuff then.

I'm on the home stretch. And the things that are getting me by til then?

• the Civil Wars
• Les Miserables clips
• naps
• rice crackers
• the thought of playing with the nieces and nephew
• knowing that Christmas and family await me at home
• New Girl, Parks and Rec, Office, Modern Family, and Once Upon A Time episodes
• Study Blue online flashcards
• peppermint milkshakes
• and Pinterest

And that's all I've got peoples. It's bed time.